Sunday, January 31, 2010

the different faces of keen.

if pictures could talk....
"what? oh yes, i know i'm cute."

when i first began talking, i couldn't say my name.
my parents would point at me and say,
"whose that? whose that?"

i would respond, "keen".
needless to say, it stuck.

"i've got the gift. peace out."

"can i have a cookie...please?
oh and i kind of have to pee, i think"
aren't my neon shorts rockin?

"yeah, i'm a package deal...from head to toe."

"who me? oh you're too kind."
this is one of my favorites. i love that little poof
scrunchie in my hair.

perhaps this is why my cheer career never took off...
i seem to be lacking the essential perkiness of cheerleaders.
nichel (on the left) doesn't seem too happy to be
a pumpkin either.

well, thats about it. just some of my favorites...
i'm keen.
"over and out."

Thursday, January 28, 2010

the seesaw parable.

{picture from here}

life is a seesaw.
tomorrow? we'll just have to wait and see.

say nighty-night and kiss me;
just hold me tight and tell me you'll miss me.
while i'm alone, blue as can be,
dream a little dream of me.
-the mamas and papas, dream a little dream of me

thanks nun.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

a letter to me.

paper tissue

dear keen,

one of these days, i plan to be a better friend to my dearest aubry. she is serving an lds mission, and i do not write to her nearly enough. but at this moment i would like to send out an 'i love you' to her and hope some cosmic force will allow her to recieve it.

your nails are drying right now, and if i do say so did a fine job on those french tips. my eyes are feeling a little bit sleepy, and i can't help but feel slightly frustrated. you see, it's really bothering me. let me explain. a few days ago i got into a conversation at work with my lovely friends holly and suzanne about how in many movies now days, there are these strange looking men (who really aren't attractive at all) with beautiful, slender...physically perfect wives. think about it. an example of this would be the movie couples retreat. not a big fan of the movie, but it really is a prime example. so here is my question, answer if you've got anything: why is it that these movies are telling us that women should be perfect and men don't have to be? why are we the ones getting picked on? how on earth does vince vaughn end up with malin akerman? or jon favreau (seriously unattractive) end up with the gal from sex in the city? really, looks aren't the most important thing to me. but it's just the idea of it that frustrates me...that woman should simply be perfect....just something i've been thinking about.

well, now i'm even more exhausted. but you and si really had that crowd going at applebee's tonight. "do re mi" has never been more rocking. you're trying to live and carry through with your change #1. i'm proud of you. don't get discouraged. its shaping up to be a fantastic year.
to nunny, you've got this under control. part of being human is making mistakes. part of being human is learning and growing from those mishaps...part of being human is feeling the pain of disappointment but then waking up the next morning with a new and glorious begining. keen has faith in you, always.

in the words of billy, happiness will make you wonder. will i feel ok? it scares the disenchanted far away. yeah i want something new but what am i supposed to do about you. yeah i love you, it's true. -smashing pumpkins, hummer


Sunday, January 24, 2010

the lotus awakening dress.

the lotus awakening dress


found at anthropologie

i really enjoy the floral and the layers...
why do i have to love such expensive things?

mr. disappointment

paper tissue

listen to neil young's mr. disappointment

"i'd like to shake your hand, disappointment.
looks like you win again,
but this time might be the last."

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

approximately 10:15 p.m....

paper tissue
today i made a decision. my life needs some changes. there are certain things that i know i need to make happen. so...i decided that starting at that moment, which i believe was approximately around 9:35 a.m, things were going to be different. after a day of school, pondering, and thinking about my new decision and where to begin, i decided to stop by one of my favorite places to shop (the d.i).

as i casually browsed through some old books, i couldn't help but feel inclined to tap my foot to the beatles song playing over the speaker. being that i was in a public place, and out of social habits, i didn't let myself. just at this moment, approximately 3:30 p.m., a small elderly woman came around the corner with a large smile spread across her face, bouncing and tapping and bobbing away to the music. i was so pleased at this sight. she looked at me, and seeing the smile on my face said, " isn't this such a great song!?" i quickly agreed and told her the beatles would be proud. i then watched her head on her way, dancing down the isle of used books. change #1: know what love, and not be afraid to really, really love it. even if that means, dancing down the isle to a song i can't resist...why not? take the small things and make each day just a little more meaningful, a little more memorable, and a little more alive.

after leaving the d.i, i had to run another quick errand before heading home. while walking into the store, i bumped into an old friend...approximately at 4:15 p.m. we chatted for a while, reminicing about old times and people that we have/haven't kept in touch with. it got me thinking about all the friends i am so blessed to have in my life. i don't know what it is, but i have some absolutely stellar friendships surrounding me. and the more i continued to think about all these relationships, the more overwhelmed with gratitude i became. and i was inspired. change #2: be a better friend. my friends have seen me through everything. and i want to be that kind of friend back.

later in the evening i began my run. i started off pretty average and continued that way for a good mile. and then, something happened at approximately 9:00 p.m. i wasn't at all satisfied with my efforts. why?...because i knew i could do better. i could run harder. i could move faster. i could set my mind on becoming greater, and i could actually achieve it. so why wasn't i? it just took that moment. that beautiful moment of focus and self-discovery...and i pushed. i pushed myself harder and worked towards becoming better. change #3: remember my potential, stay focused on what it is i want, and no matter how routine my life becomes or how stressed or discouraged i may get, push myself to be greater. whether i'm at work, at home... i want to give it my every effort.

i want to move foward. i hate sitting. i like knowing that progression is being made. i want to forget about myself and think about others. i want to get a puppy that i can love and take care of. i want to make things happen that i know without a doubt. i want to dance down the isle and feel weight lifted from my shoulders. i want to run as hard as i can and know that i couldn't have run any harder. i want to tell those that i love that i love them....hmmmm.

it was a day of decision i guess.

give me a puppy! please....

today i realized what i am missing...
a puppy!

so if you'd please, i really do need this one:

and i would love this one with all my heart:

and this one is too darling for words...

i saw a puppy while driving to school...
then i saw two puppies in the parking lot...
so then i stopped by the pet store and saw
lots and lots of perfect little puppies...

and now it's all i can think about!

Saturday, January 16, 2010


i spent tonight with two of my best friends....
jessica (the one on the far left) is now back from washington d.c., where she was doing student teaching. and erin (middle) is in town from omaha, nebraska where she is going to creighton dental school.
i love these ladies so very much.
we've seen each other through pretty much everthing...
many many broken hearts, quite a few nights of dark chocolate m&m's and heart cookie, the stresses of finals week (especially when you live with two studious girls like jessica and erin), lots and lots of laughter, and of course...everything that aubry every did. (aubry is the fourth member of our little friendship, who is currently serving an lds mission. we miss her lots.) aubry is special.
it was so great to catch up and spend time with them.
that is one of the greatest parts to college...the people you meet and the friendships you create and take with you forever.

thank you erin, for that one long night when we both kept each other company in the family room, with our broken hearts and box of uncomfortable as sleeping on that love seat was...i was so grateful to have you there with me.

thank you jessica, for all those late nights we would stay up on the top bunk, me on the bottom bunk, just chatting about who knows what. most the time i don't think we even knew what we were talking about probably because we were half asleep.

and to aubry, thank you for being a joy in all our lives. tonight we couldn't help but think about you as we laughed about old times. you are and i think that is why we love you the way we do.

love you girls.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

down the way.

paper tissue

i'm the girl down the way.
the one with the jeans and t-shirt on.
there is a collection of childrens books in my closet.
and design magazines on my floor.
thrift stores and me have lots of fun together... in general is a hobby of mine.
i work in a beautiful place, with beautiful people,
both on the inside and out.
after a long, stressful day its possible you'll find me
sprawled on the sofa watching full house re-runs.
yes, it's true...hey, i grew up in the nineties.
i'm the girl who loves the feel of salty ocean water...
drinks too much diet coke,
and cries when she watches the friends episode
when chandler proposes to monica.
running makes me feel powerful,
country rock music is the key to my soul,
i have a secret love for the black-eyed pea's...
and nunny's smile makes my heart leap.
yeah, i'm just the girl down the way...


Sunday, January 10, 2010

and then the girl fell in love...

with a dress.
i happened to stumble upon this wonderful
dress on the eliza magazine blog.
(it's one of my favorite places to go for fashion info)

isn't this darling?
i've always loved the tea-length wedding dress look.
and no, i'm not getting married anytime
in the forseen future.

but hey, that doesn't stop this dress from being


"or use the yoke to make pudding....wooohoooo!"
so classic.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

going dr. suess on you....

so, what is college like life you ask?
well let me first tell you, it's no easy task.

you may move to an island far, far away.

or quite possibly be a bridesmaid on your friends
wedding day.

sometimes you'll just need some chocolate cake to
relieve your stress....

and when that doesn't work,
a lot of diet coke with lime will conquer the rest...
you may take a road trip to hollywood.

or explore an attic just because you could.

it's possible you'll find new ways to make the most of little time...
(working out while brushing teeth)
or run out of ideas to rhyme.

you may spend a few days in beautiful mexico...

and have friends that you really hate to see go.

it's a long road, yes i won't lie.
but once you're approaching the end,
it's strange to say goodbye.

it's such a happy thought, being completely done
with school in just a few months...
and at the same time i can't help but worry
and wonder and wish that some parts of it, i could
just take with me forever.

Friday, January 8, 2010

i'm not worried.

ukraine, picture from here

sometimes when i just can't make sense of the words...
or of people...or of colors....or of situations...
or of tears...or of relationships...
or of feelings...or of you...or of me...
or of the daily whatever...

i think of this.

romans 8: 37-39
"nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.
for i am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,
nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord."

see nunny? i can make sense of it now.
because that's really enough of an answer right there.
with God's love, we really don't need to be worried.

and i'm not.

good enough to sip.

isn't this lime juice dress everything
your heart has desired?
well...maybe that's just me, but i think it's darling.
i can't get enough of it.
of course,
found at anthropologie.

click here to see the dress styled with a great belt.
it's so beautiful.
i'll dream lime dreams tonight.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

bought a big bat.

picture taken in mexico

2010, i'm thinking of you.
i'll be twenty-two this year. that makes me smile.
i love being twenty-one. but twenty-two is cool too.
2010 will bring a graduation cap and another beginning,
to another phase of life. i don't like change.
but i'm becoming pretty darn good at it.
a new year, means a fresh start.
and that is exactly what i intend to do.

'i have heard there are troubles of more than one kind. some come from ahead and some come from behind. but i've bought a big bat. i'm all ready you see. now my troubles are going to have troubles with me.'

-dr. suess

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

my wishlist.

i wish i was a neutron bomb, for once I could go off
i wish i was a sacrifice but somehow still lived on
i wish i was a sentimental ornament you hung on

the christmas tree, i wish i was the star that went on top
i wish i was the evidence, i wish i was the grounds
for 50 million hands upraised and open toward the sky

i wish i was a sailor with someone who waited for me
i wish i was as fortunate, as fortunate as me
i wish i was a messenger and all the news was good

i wish i was the full moon shining off a camaro's hood
i wish i was an alien at home behind the sun
i wish i was the souvenir you kept your house key on

i wish i was the pedal brake that you depended on
i wish i was the verb 'to trust' and never let you down
i wish i was a radio song, the one that you turned up
i wish...

-pearl jam, wishlist
i can really relate to eddie in this song.

click here to listen.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

i was older then...

so...what did 2009 leave us with?
a year of stimulus packages and bailouts...
a new president that we watched in eagerness,
leaders that we watched in dismay and discouragement.
a lost icon who, with his revolutionary dance moves and historic words,
changed human nature as we know it..
"don't tell me you agree with me.
when i saw you kicking dirt in my eye,
but, if you're thinkin' bout my baby,
it don't matter if you're black or white."
social media took another leap with a 'tweet, tweet'.
ashton kutcher finally found his place in the world.
conan o'brien filled the tonight show slot,
which proceeded to become much more humorous.
the swine flu gave the world a scare.
...and was deemed a global pandemic.
captain richard phillips proved to be a hero against
somali pirates in a five day stand-off.
miss california was dethroned for expressing her
opinion on same-sex marriage,
oh and did i mention...right to perez hilton's face ha ha.
captain chelsley sullenberger became a hero after
safely landing flight 1549 in the hudson river.

it was an eventful year.